Musings of a Musician

over too soon

2008-02-10T21:07:00.000-08:00

i hardly had a chance to let it sink in
before the weight was too hard to bear
i barely found all the words i needed
before you could no longer hear

our time was cut off
my world fell apart
when does this pain melt away
you were right there
but then you were gone
when God took you I slipped away

it was over too soon
my head is spinnin'
you were gone too soon
their lives were just beginnin'
you'll never give them advice
never make 'em think twice
you'll never see one be a groom
why oh why was it over too soon?

if i would have known you were fadin
i wouldn't have done things the same
if i would have known that morning
would be the last time you'd say my name

i would have stayed
right by your side
holding your hand
all through the night

it was over too soon
my head is spinnin'
you were gone too soon
their lives were just beginnin'
you'll never be on the phone
when i'm all alone
you'll never know how i miss you
why oh why was it over too soon?

if this was in His perfect plan
i can't see the whole design
how can my sights be set on love
now that you are not in mine

it was over too soon
my heart is so tired
you were gone too soon
i wasn't done being inspired
you'll never help me make it through
never show me the way
you'll never show me the way through
why oh why was it over too soon?

God, why oh why was it over too soon?

New Mercies

2007-12-14T22:12:00.000-08:00

I can't find the words to say
No more walking my own way
I can't do anything right
Get me out of this lonely night.

It's time to show me, God.
The long road lays untrod.
I can't take one step more.
I can't feel like this any more.

You promised....
To take good care of me.
To guide me but I can't see.
I'm searchin..
Each morning I expect a change
But I'm left with all this rage.

All I wanna do is follow
I can't. I am so hollow.
All I wanna do is follow
I can't. I am so hollow.

Each morning is supposed to be
Filled with those new mercies
All I feel is pain.
Get me out of the dark night rain.

Wake me up to find
Peace of mind
Take away this pain.
Take away the rain.

You promised....
To take good care of me.
To guide me but I can't see.
I'm searchin..
Each morning I expect a change
But I'm left with all this rage.

All I wanna do is follow
I can't. I am so hollow.
All I wanna do is follow
I can't. I am so hollow.

Hurt

2007-09-05T18:45:00.000-07:00

I can't take another day.
Watching you slip away.
All the life I've ever known
Feeling nothing like my own.
Hear the bad news come in waves
All along he says, "God saves."

Nothing more outside for me.
This is not what's supposed to be.
Want to watch him grow old and gray
Hear advice and help me pray
Time to move but all is numb
I want out, I want to run

There's nothing left inside.
Just an empty place to hide.
God take it all away.
I can't face the day to day.
It's no use talking to my friends.
Where does it stop, where does this end?
God it's time to make me see
Why do I hurt?
Why do You let me?

Stop the lies, stop the cliches
Don't wanna hear of your sad days
Don't you see that I don't care
All I need now isn't there
Can't take it anymore.
Gotta get up off this floor.

There's nothing left inside.
Just an empty place to hide.
God take it all away.
I can't face the day to day.
It's no use talking to my friends.
Where does it stop, where does this end?
God it's time to make me see
Why do I hurt?
Why do You let me?

If there's one thing I believe
It's that You never want me to leave
It's hard to understand just why
Why did he have to die?
Guess I have to make You mine
Can't live through him - now it's my time

Gotta live like it's my life
Like I am Yours and You are mine
Can't hide behind my old facade
Now and always You're my God
There's nothing left to fill this pain
Except for You. It's Your time to reign.

So when there's nothing left inside.
Just an empty place to hide.
God can take it all away.
When you can't face the day to day.
It's no use talking to your friends.
Where does it stop, where does this end?
God it's time, He'll make you see
Why do You hurt?
Because so does He

Not thrilled with the last line...working on it....

You Name

2007-06-13T20:39:00.000-07:00

...is a strong and mighty tower
...is a shelter like no other
.........Nothing has the power to save....
like Your Name.

My purpose

2007-04-06T14:08:00.000-07:00

The moment I realized My reflection was in His eyes
And the pain He bore would have been just for me
The second I understand It was always in His plan
To save me from myself and help me to see

He loves me now and He loved me then
When you think about it, it's always been so
In Heaven, on earth, and on that tree
When you look through Jesus' eyes, that's when you know.

My life was always meant to be.
My eyes were always meant to see.
My hands were always meant to serve.
My mind was always meant to learn.
In Heaven, on earth, and on that tree
When you look through Jesus' eyes, that's when you know.

Thank You for Your mercy
Thank You for Your grace
Thank You for forgivenes
When guilt covered my face

My life was always meant to be.
My eyes were always meant to see.
My hands were always meant to serve.
My mind was always meant to learn.
In Heaven, on earth, and on that tree
Every time I look through Jesus' eyes, that's when I know.

Keep Singing

2007-01-29T21:00:00.000-08:00

This is by MercyMe on their "Undone" album. I had forgotten about it, but rediscovered how much it spoke to me. God really uses them to sing some powerful lyrics. You should look it up and download it if you don't have it. The piano is amazing and simple and worshipful. I love it. Hope you enjoy.

Another rainy day
I can't recall having sunchine on my face
And all I feel is pain
All I wanna do is walk out of this place

But when I am stuck
And Ican't move
When I don't know what I should do
When I wonder if I'll ever make it through

I gotta keep singing
I gotta keep praising Your name
You're the One that's keeping my heart beating
I gotta keep singing
I gotta keep praising Your name
That's the only way that I find healing

Can I climb up in Your lap?
I don't wanna leave
Jesus sing over me.
I gotta keep singing.

Can I climb up in Your lap?
I don't wanna leave
Jesus sing over me.
Oh, You're everything I need
And I gotta keep singing.

I Wonder As I Wander

2006-12-17T15:38:00.000-08:00

One of the most haunting melodies and stirring pieces of lyrics I have ever come across.

I wonder as I wander out under the sky
How Jesus the Saviour did come for to die
For poor on'ry people like you and like I;
I wonder as I wander out under the sky

When Mary birthed Jesus 'twas in a cow's stall
With wise men and farmers and shepherds and all
But high from God's heaven, a star's light did fall
And the promise of ages it then did recall.

If Jesus had wanted for any wee thing
A star in the sky or a bird on the wing
Or all of God's Angels in heaven to sing
He surely could have it, 'cause he was the King

My Top 5

2006-11-27T18:00:00.000-08:00

Christmas Songs of all time:
1. Carol of the Bells
2. O Holy Night
3. Chestnuts Roasting on an Open Fire (officially, "The Christmas Song")
4. Santa Baby
5. It's Cold Outside
6. Let It Snow! Let It Snow! Let It Snow!
7. It Came Upon a Midnight Clear
8. Away in a Manger
9. Nut Cracker Suite
10. Hallelujah Chorus (I realize that it is often sung at Easter, but it can be my favorite for two seasons...)

And who was I kidding? You're talking to a music person. I can't hold it to just 5.

Somebody explain it to me, please

2006-11-15T18:32:00.000-08:00

I don't understand why people can be more involved and "in" to the music at a James Taylor, Rolling Stones, KISS, 50 Cent, Beyonce, ___(fill in the blank)___ concert than while worshiping our Creator. They would rather talk and yawn through it....they'd rather complain that it's too loud (I wonder if they would say that to Big and Rich) or that it's "Not their style" - or whatever. I am at a loss.

My only observation? Get over it. You aren't gonna like Heaven if you don't like praisin' and singin' - and there may be only one style - one song for that matter! Get over yourself.

sorry for the rant.....

Carefree

2006-11-05T20:17:00.000-08:00

The idea of being carefree and joyful has been one that I have really wanted to explore musically lately...I think it's because I feel the need to let God's joy be MY joy and to let God handle the big stuff and the small stuff...Why worry? Christians are some of the gloomiest people I know. Why is that? I think the world would be full of MORE of us if we weren't so sour...

His Joy

2006-10-30T07:26:00.000-08:00

I'm gonna leave all this world has to give me
Gonna leave it all behind
I'm gonna lose all the guilt and the suffering
Gonna throw it all aside

When it comes down to it I have a choice to make
I can sink or I can swim
When the rubber meets the road I have one path to take
My choice is to follow Him

I want His joy. I want His joy.
Time to make a decision
I want His joy. His joy.
Time to see with His vision.
Leave it all behind. Use His eyes as mine.
I want His joy.

Only You

2006-10-24T18:42:00.000-07:00

V 1:
They say "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger."
I'm sure I don't want this any longer
"It's not the end of the world," "It's who you know."
"Someday you'll understand." I say, "It hurts to grow."

If You've gone before me why is the path unclear?
If You've provided my needs why am I filled with fear?
It's not about the getting, it's all their taking.
All these doubts...inside I'm breaking.

C1:
Could it be that my sights are lost?
Could it be I'm shaky and tossed?
Bring me back toYour steady plan.
Reach out so I can take Your hand.
I don't have to be gripped by fear.
I just have to let You near.
I fix my eyes on You.
Only You

V3:
I've heard it said that love is blind.
From where I stand, You're not the kind
To veil Your truth, to mask Your grace.
No, love is pouring out from Your face.
I'm not listening to any more of their lies,
Loving something doesn't mean letting it fly.
I want to hold on tight and never let it go
You are the One, the One I know.

C2:
Could it be that my sights were lost?
Could it be I was shaky and tossed?
Bring me back toYour steady plan.
Reach out so I can take Your hand.
I don't have to be gripped by fear.
I just have to let You near.
I fix my eyes on You.
Only You

Just When

2006-10-18T20:38:00.000-07:00

I'm the empty one.
Sitting in the back row.
I know it will soon pass.
But for now this is all so
Draining. Tiring. Sad.
I want to feel something..
Anthing. I'd even
Settle for mad.

It's all just become this way of life.
Can't put the pieces back all right.

But...

Just when I think I slipped Your mind.
Just when I think I was left behind.
Just when I think I'm so far away
You walk before me, I hear You say,
"Hang on. I'm still your friend."
Just then.

Funny how life seems
To pull me outside.
When I just want to fall
In Your arms and hide.
Take this away,
I've grown colder and colder
Help me to place
This hurt on Your shoulders.

It's all just become this way of life.
Can't put the pieces back all right.

But...

Just when I think I slipped Your mind.
Just when I think I was left behind.
Just when I think I'm so far away
You walk before me, I hear You say,
"Don't fear. I'm still your friend."
Just then.

I'm clinging by a thread
Dangling on a prayer
I'm holding my breath
Lord, show me You care
I believe in Your mercy.
I believe in Your grace.
I just want to look past
To see Your face.

But...
Just when I think I slipped Your mind.
Just when I think I was left behind.
Just when I think I'm so far away
You walk before me, I hear You say,
"Here I am. I'm still your friend."
Just then.